Don't read if you are offended by STRONGLY held religious beliefs... or lack there of...

ok... so the first thing i am going to try to do is to remain calm... i am trying to breathe through the posting of this... let's see if i can actually do that... yeah... not sure i can... (breathing in out in out ) so what has me all worked up... well many of you know me... you know that i have a very open mind about most things... i am all for religious expression, and as long as you don't judge me... to each their own... also as many of you know... holding onto something.... especially on an emotional level (like staying mad at someone) takes effort on my part.... so i find myself in relatively untested water... so what has got me worked up... creationism... yep... you read it right... creationism... for some reason i can't let it go... it gets me worked up every time... i am trying to find my lesson in all of this... there has got to be one... there always is... so why is it that every time i hear that word it make my blood pressure rise... and the word stupid keeps being repeated in my head over and over and over again... i just want to look at everyone that goes to that museum and truly believes that the world is only 6,000 years old and say... "are you stupid or just uneducated" or maybe the right question would be... "are you THAT easily led?" you see... although i am a believer in evolution... i do admit there are holes in the theory... i also fully agree that there is intelligent design to some degree... hell, i am even ok if you want to believe in creation if you agree that it happened over thousands of years and not just seven days... and that who ever you want to call "god" didn't just say "poof" there is an elephant... what really gets me is that these people want to totally discount science based on a book that is 2000 years old... but want their heart attack treated with the latest and greatest science there is... you know the one... that same science that can carbon date and measure stuff in the minutest of parts, but can't accurately identify how old the earth is because a book, written by man (even if you agree that it was inspired by god, a man still wrote it) says that the earth is only 6000 years old... someone... please help me to understand... I also had the realization today... that the bible is at least 1900 years old, right? so, in the last 1900 years... NO ONE has been inspired enough, or has been inspired good enough to be included... ok.... i am done bashing the bible... i do feel that it is a great inspirational work... but history book it is not... lets leave that to some secular people for now... and the explantion that they give for meat-eating is that original sin is what CAUSED animals to start eating each other...really...are you for real? sorry... i am back to repeating the word stupid again... ok... breathing... well i am going to let you ponder that for a moment... i am going to try to do some breath work and some meditation to counteract the irritation this subject causes me... say it with me .... Ooooooommmmmm! Ooooooommmmmm!

I'm a traveling (wo)man...

So... just to catch you up on everything... I have been elected to be the NKVMA Delegate to the KVMA(Kentucky Veterinary Medical Association)... Pretty cool. What this means is that I get to work with the KVMA Board at the state level... I get to rub elbows with some really great veterinarians and I get to see how it all works. I am really excited about it...
So this week has been really hectic... I worked Saturday and Sunday days... it was so busy. I did not get home until late Sunday and had to be at work at the clinic (my old clinic) on Monday... then I was off on Tuesday. Wednesday and Thursday I have been up here in Indy (days are very boring...) Back home tonight (thurs) to wash clothes and hug the family and sleep in my own bed... only to leave again on Friday for Elizabeth town for the KVMA retreat. Back home Saturday night (to wash clothes again) and hug the family again... and Back to Indy for the Sunday Day shift... Monday at the clinic... whew... I am tired just thinking about it.... I sooooo could NOT be a star... I could not keep up this pace.
Next week is back to normal... Off Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Back to Indy Friday PM for my night shifts! My crew will be so happy. But the exciting news is that I get my new Tattoos on Wednesday... Brenda that did Zaines ankle tat is doing both of them... she now has her own private studio. I am getting a tat on my right leg... a pentacle type representation... Star in the middle and each element will be protrayed... somewhat life like... it looked so cool and I am letting Brenda put her own flair to it... Then on the back of my neck... I am doing some stars... I can't wait to see her design... she is such a great artist... and she is so worth the money. I looked at a couple of other designers... but I just kept wanting her to do it...
So if all goes well... I will have tat's 4 and 5 done this week... then I am going to get her opinion about waht can be added to my dragon arm... I want a half sleeve...dragon, castle, etc.. But where to put my wizzard... So many ideas, so little skin...LOL
Well, i am off for now...

give me a reason...

ok... so i am not the best at expressing my thoughts about politics... so i often have a hard time debating it with other people... i also tend to follow the old adage not to discuss politics with friends and family...lol so here is what i don't get... i am for obama... i have been since shortly after his speech 4 years ago... but what i don't get is the following statement... "he scares me" that is what i keep hearing over and over again... i have used this same statement about "w"... but i followed it with that fact that he lied, the fact that he was too easily led, the fact that he called himself a "war president"... that is my point... i followed up my statement with a "why"... the anti-obama people i talk with just keep telling me "he scares me" so i ask why and they reply "i've just heard too many things" so i ask "like what?" still no answer... i for one am tired of the non-answers... give me a reason... a good reason... tell me he has a bad aura... what i can tell you is that he is saying who he is and he is living up to it... when is the last time you met someone like that, especially a politician. i am just asking for everyone to watch what he says ( not what anyone else says) and then watch what he does in response to things... you will find he is spot on... no trickery... he really is that real... judge for yourself... make up your own mind... soo that we have a future... and four more years of this will put us all in ruins... but it won't ruin "w's" core people... they will be laughing all the way to the bank... i for one will not be laughing...
so i am asking again... give me a reason you do not like him... just one

a change in venue...

there is a new breeze blowing... it is very fitting that i am making big changes in my life. there is no more perfect time than fall to end a cycle of learning in ones life only to begin a new cycle. i began amost 2 years ago deciding what i wanted for my life... for our life... i wrote down a list of things that i wanted for both my personal and private life... i was very specific on somethings and more vague on others... and as always... despite a great deal of planning and intention i find that the universe gave me exactly what i asked for... although not exactly as i envisioned... i decided that i wanted someone to help or take over my business and i got exactly that... right down to the very person i wanted to be by my side... i wanted some specific equipment, better known as toys...lol and this is where i did not get quite specific enough... i got all of the toys that i wanted... but i did not say where i wanted them... oops, better planning next time... i have been gifted with much interest in my skills... and yet i am not sure yet if i have found the right job... what is hard is that i have already bonded with a new staff and already feel bad that i may not stay... but i am learning to say no. it is a simple word actually. no. so short. should be easy to say and do. but when faced with the overwhelming urge to help people, pets, etc... no. is not so easy. i often find my self wanting to be the hero. who doesn't. what i want mostly is to get up every morning, knowing that my family is taken care of and that i have made a difference in someone's life.
lets be one with that thought... what can i do to make a difference... how can i be used to make the world a better place... a more loving place...

Wanderings...

So, we are back home from going to Myrtle Beach, SC.... strange... we went there numerous times when we were kids... but very little looked familiar.... i did got to a local market and pick up some shrimp to boil...WOW were they good. We found a place called Brookgreen Gardens... Again... nevr knew they existed... what a beautiful place!!!!!!! they had live oak trees that were over 250 years old ! It is the largest sculpture garden in the world! it is on 9000 acres...We barely saw a third of it... I want to go back ... they have leased half of it to the National Park system... so we went into the park... that was the best part.... there was a huge wetland area, there were aligators about 7-9 feet from us... it was soooooo cool! on the other side of the road, the tide was out and there were fiddler crabs EVERYWHERE....i saw tons of herons and other birds... i wanted to wait for the tide to come in.... but we didnt have the time... I could have spent and entire day there.... ther photo ops were unbelievable!

Here are a few of the views...

Rules of engagement...

ok... so as i was typing, i began thinking about people who might leave comments, and maybe they would not be nice about it... so that got my mind to wandering (thus the title) that i live by a few rules... mostly boundaries, i would actually call them... and , within those boundaries, the ones i hold to most tightly are the ones I call my rules of engagement... So when i interact with people, and more importantly, fight or disagree with them, i play fair... and i insist that everyone else play fair also...

so what does that look like, well it look likes this... no name calling, no personal attacks, no degrading of anothers opinion, you may talk about your feeling and i will talk about mine, but neither one of us may tell the other "how" they should feel about it... if someone begins to feel overwhelmed, it is ok to walk away and come back to the subject later... but you may NOT (yeah, this is a big one), you may NOT bring up things from the past... it is in the past, and that is where it belongs... you need to debate about what is going on now, not stuff that happened 3 years ago that you are sill sore about... no tit for tat...

so try it out... see how it changes what you say to your friends and your significant others...
be nice... and hug a tree...

Wanderings

Today was such a great day. I was up at 8:30 am, without an alarm clock... I was excited to get the day started... It was going to be beautiful weather... I would be working in the garden... there would be friends and family around. What more could I ask for. So my day started and despite significant pain...I got up and going. I put the grid on my boxes for my garden (vegetables) . Z and I put up the Trelises for the climbing plants. Mom came over to watch the kids. Then K/K and Scrapbooking J arrived, followed shortly by J from work. There was a plethora of activity. there was planting and putting in the new grape arbor and grass cutting and lawn mowers breaking down and gettin fixed and breaking down again.... There was much laughter and tons of thanks. And at the end of the day... EVERYTHING that needed to get done today was done.
We are blessed with greatness and friendship.