Struggling...

I truly wish I could tell you where it all went wrong... But I just know the moment went my life was going to change and knowing in that instant that I could do nothing to change the course of what was coming. I know that I did what I could, knowing that I gave it my all. But I am left feeling that I was always alone, that I had held us together for years. I am left feeling used. I am left with the reality of never truly having a partner, but rather having been involved with someone who never really knew me. And never really tried. Who never truly gave me what I gave to her. Which was all of me. I almost gave her my life. Struggling to support a family that she was unwilling to support. Working until I was so sick and tired and yes. Nearly dead. And for all of that. She has left me. And again has walked out on her responsibility of supporting her family. I will support and raise my family. I will do what I have to do to make their lives easier. And I will live well and be able to give them more of what they deserve. Which is a stable home life with a loving involved parent. This life that lies ahead of us will be more than I could have dreamed. And I will walk this path with my head held high.
I will find love again. I will not compromise or settle. I will show them that happily ever after can happen. If you bother to try. I will show them how to lead a purposeful life. One filled with service and the joy of accomplishment.
Onward and upward. I have hit bottom... There is no where to go but up. Living well, truly is the best revenge.